Monday. Seems so far away since I have been slacking on blogging about my daily adventures. I do remember my phone having died Monday morning, and I never turned it on, just plugged it in. When I turned it on I had a call from work asking if I could come in because they were crazy busy. When asked had I have gone in if I got the message in time by my friend I replied, "I don't really know, but I may have. I'm sure it was God doing for me what I couldn't do for myself." I know we went to the meeting that night, and out to dinner with the group and to karaoke, which was busy because the contest was the next night, but I don't recall doing much else the rest of the day. I remember...I was sitting down to make a picture frame for my co-workers baby shower when my housemate mentioned that she couldn't stand the dog hair, seeing as it is my job, and I am being paid, I swept up the house. I had intended on dusting, but I figured I could dust another day, and work on the floors instead. Which took me up to the time to get ready and go.
Tuesday, having been out later than we normally are due to the busy karaoke, I slept through Tai Chi. I woke up only in enough time to get ready for work. After work I headed out to the karaoke finals even though she already sang, they still hadn't announced the winner and I got to meet a guy she was meeting. I did get to sing so it wasn't a complete waste of a trip! She didn't win, but our "friend" from a previous dead Monday night, who was fabulous got second place, and we were glad, cuz he was incredible! After that I headed home and finished the frame and made deviled eggs for the co-workers baby shower the next day.
Wednesday. It was noted that I was up early. It's weird for me to have people care and love me so much. And so completely wonderful. I am gaining a greater sense of self-love by the constant praise. I am starting to ease up on myself a bit, and trying to see myself through the eyes of these people who appreciate me and see so much value in my attempts. I headed off to the baby shower, held in one of the meeting rooms at work, and was a few minutes late, which turned out to be just fine cuz the guest of honor had completely forgotten. I helped finish the decorating and was thanked and praised for my efforts there. It's strange to me that even at work the things that I do, that I have always done, that seem simple and common place are praised and deeply appreciated. God really knows what He is doing. After the shower I headed into work. It was very busy, which kept the night going by quickly. I went home exhausted and managed to stay up longer than I wanted, but sleep good none-the-less.
Thursday. When my alarm went off this morning I turned it off and was going to sleep through Tai Chi one more day, but 10 minutes later when my calendar reminder in my phone went off, I forced myself out of bed, knowing I could come back to bed when class was over and I really did want to go. I was late, but class hadn't started because there were some women back from vacation so everyone was socializing. The ladies who knew me, remembered that I could not be there because of work and asked me about it. I was touched that they remembered. I was greeted with smiles and gratitude for being able to ask for the days off and be part of the Tai Chi class. I was the only student, so I got the teacher all to myself, once again to be praised for my efforts. I'm hoping I will get used to the praise, but still appreciate it's value. I came home after class feeling much better, and still tired and went straight back to bed till 2 in the afternoon, where I was awoken by the incessant barking of the dogs and the arrival of my unemployment check. I decided I may as well get up and do that dusting I didn't do on Monday. I sat down to eat and was informed that the reason she was originally here has found work here and is coming back home to stay. My initial instinct was to pack up and go home. But to where? with what? and why? After talking to the reason I am here, we made some decisions. For the first time since we've been here, we have a tiny idea. All the rest is in the care of a loving Higher Power and will reveal itself in due time. She is going to stay and see if she can't make a go of her business. The guest house will now get finished and she will move out there. I have been invited to stay as long as I want, and we turned the front of the house into it's own separate apartment. So it's like 2 apartments which share a common kitchen and dining room(well it will be once she moves out to the guest house, but is currently her room). It's actually really neat. I am very happy with my decision to stay until I reach my goal of $3000 in savings and pay off my debt that is not student loans or medical bills. While I don't have a time frame I at least have a goal and it makes me feel less unsure. I find it rather strange, though that for the longest time while in pursuit of my dreams I struggled with the lack of a schedule and steady paycheck, and now that I have them it feels not quite right. Although, I am loving the extreme low-stress of my job, and the complete laid back atmosphere, and supervisors. As for now it's 3am again, and I still haven't made it to bed. That's where I am headed, so I can try and get up a little early and run some errands before work. I have a bunch of stuff to look forward to in the next few weeks. This Saturday is a "Wise Women Workshop," more to come on what that is once I've experienced it. Next week I am house sitting for a friend for four days, taking care of plants and animals, and hanging out in the city. I'm content today.
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