Thursday. I slept through Tai Chi. I had great plans to clean the house and help with the building of the fence but when I woke up my body told me otherwise. I’ve learned how to listen to my body when it tells me it’s not capable of doing anything and it needs a rest, but my head wanted me to believe that because I did not poses the capability of doing anything physical if I wanted to go to work at all the rest of the week that I am useless, worthless, and beyond that fat and ugly. I fall too quickly into depression and it takes way too long to get out of said depression. So my entire day was spent on the sofa mindlessly watching tv. It was probably a much needed day of rest.
Friday. I awoke feeling depleted of my normal energy but had enough to be able to get up and get ready and go to work. Luckily I got to sleep in because I worked at 3pm. I figured since I was thrown on phones the first day I wasn’t going to get much training today either. I was right. It’s been a learn as you go process. Of course, I am a fast learner, and I’ve definitely made some mistakes, and I’m learning from them, and not beating myself up. It’s nice that my boss is aware that I’ve had no training and laughs at the mistakes I’m making. For now, until I get training on the computer systems I am an operator. After training, I will be both a reservation agent and an operator, and will be scheduled according to my strengths. Although I am hoping to remain an operator, I have a feeling I will be an agent. These are my adventures! My co-workers who work as agents currently love me, because I ask people what night they are looking for rooms so if it’s nights I know we are sold out I don’t have to transfer them to reservations for them to say the same things. Apparently this is not done currently, and a revelation. I had to be at work early on Saturday but couldn’t manage to get to bed early.
I woke up tired on Saturday morning and headed to a very busy work day. After work I was speaking at a meeting, and I had not thought about it at all. Every time I did think about it I drew a blank. So I shared my journey through the steps, which took up the 45 minutes and assured the focus be on recovery. I went home, tired but couldn’t sleep.
I had intended on getting up for the best meeting in the world today but when my morning alarm went off it wasn’t going to happen. I still don’t have the energy for all that. I listened to my body and stayed in bed until I had to get up and go to work. As I was finishing up getting ready it started hailing. We are talking real hail, the kind that rips the paint of your car and leaves puddle buckets in the yard. It was suggested to me by the roomies to grab an extra pair of socks and shoes and roll up my pants. I managed to avoid all the puddles, including the one directly next to my car, by standing on the side and crawling in, managing to get the car wet in the process, but kept my feet dry. As soon as I drove out of town the rain let up.
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