After finally diving back into my self-reflection on a particularly difficult area for me on the evening of the 8th, I was left feeling rather down, and could not manage to get out of my pjs all day on the 9th. No matter how much I wanted to do anything my greatest will could not force me to get off the couch(which was a move made late in the afternoon from the bed), and of course I did not ask a power greater than myself for help as it completely skipped my mind in all my despair. Not wanting to repeat said despair but still wanting to keep the commitment I made to myself to work on this horrifying topic nightly as I suggest others in my life do the same, I asked my higher power for courage and strength and found the work just a tad less overbearing than the previous night, and was actually able to get out of bed, and pajamas, and even accomplish certain tasks today!
I did wake up relatively late in the morning, since it was just after noon when I finally woke up. The first thing I did was shower in order to stay out of any lingering despair. Along with came my morning meditation. I sat down to breakfast and did work on my gaming application for my new job at the hard rock! It's quite the grueling application, but all I have left is 10 years back work history. All the while I was baking chicken for the evenings Italian themed dinner party. At about 1/2 hour till I needed to leave and well past having enough time to go run the tractor(and we put it off one more day) I began cooking pasta that I could eat and getting ready for the evenings festivities. I was one of the first to arrive and got to meet new people. The party was fun, and laid back and had lots of great food, even things I could eat! The sky and fellowship here are unmatched. There is just simply nothing like it anywhere I've ever been. Although there is something about knowing that I am here temporarily that may add a little magic to my daily incredible encounters. There is something strangely serene in knowing for the first time ever I am truly living and enjoying just for today. I left the happenings around 11 not the first to go and not the last either. I came in and watered the very thirsty hanging plants, and had a very lovely chat with an incredibly sexy man back home and am realizing now that in 1/2 hour I will get 6 hours of sleep for the meeting tomorrow and I still want to do my at least 15 minutes of work. With that said, off to bedroom I go.
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