Today started the summer journey...up till tonight I hadn't thought much past the drive out to Los Lunas, Nm. I was so focused on what needed to be done to get out here, keeping in touch with the reason I came out here to make sure we were up to date on how and when we would make it out. The final plan came Friday morning, to leave Fontana, Ca home to Dad of the reason I'm here, at 5am. The idea was for me to spend saturday evening there, but saturday evening when I had yet to pack up the car by 9pm I decided it best to finish the loading of the car, get as much sleep as I could and leave for Fontana, Ca from Moorpark, Ca at 3am. Of course I didn't manage to lay down until 1am. I awoke at 2, hopped in the shower, packed the last of my things in the overstuffed box I call my car, and was on the road. We caravaned from Fontana to Los Lunas making a total of 4 stops. When I filled my gas tank which only hit empty after 410 miles I calculated gas mileage-40miles to the gallon! Apparently not only is my car awesome, but if you are driving 65 the whole time, it gets kick a^^ mileage!
Only once we were about an hour outside of our town of destination was I overwhelmed with the sensation of what I was doing, and then flooded with gratitude for the lack of stability in my life. Something that has been a fear of mine as of late...it's turned over now. I was also struck with a sensation of mass confusion, there is nothing here, and how can nothing be so beautiful? Also once we were about an hour outside the reason I am here talked to me about the plans for the next couple weeks, we will not be just us in the house for 2 weeks, there will be 5 of us sharing a 2 bedroom house this week, then we lose one and will be down to the 4 of us the following week. A 2 bedroom house on a 4 acre ranch was pictured very differently in my head then the reality of the magnificence of what we arrived to see. As exhausted as I was, and all I wanted to do was sleep, I took a tour of my new summer home and very much love the house. I don't very much love the bugs. I was introduced to many exciting things that will happen, and I will hopefully be able to share them all. For now I have showered, taken a sauna, brushed my teeth, put on comfy pjs and am ready to crash out.
Your words were lovely here: "Only once we were about an hour outside of our town of destination was I overwhelmed with the sensation of what I was doing, and then flooded with gratitude for the lack of stability in my life. Something that has been a fear of mine as of late...it's turned over now. I was also struck with a sensation of mass confusion, there is nothing here, and how can nothing be so beautiful?"
ReplyDeleteWe, the people who are still here for a couple weeks, are perplexed at what life has for us. As many are in the Country today, we've endured challenges. We're going where the work is, and right now, perhaps the work is in Florida. We were happy that Jessica offered to join Sarahjoy and help housesit our house in NM, a four acre farm. Jessica has been adaptive, a true camper, and a lovely young woman.
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