Thursday I had set my alarm to get up early to head off the the MVD(new mexico's equivalent to the Dmv) to get a state id. I only hit snooze twice and decided the music on my alarm was so crappy I would get up just to change the station. I got ready and was on my way to where I thought I new I was going. Turns out I was wrong, and suddenly not so sure of myself anymore. Thank god for cell phones. I called and was given extremely good direction, and ended up being 15 minutes late to my appointment, but seen all the same. They really wanted me to surrender my license and asked "why don't you want to surrender your license?" I politely and honestly stated I wasn't sure if I was going to stay. This satisfied the workers need to take away my california license, and I was able to pay the $10 fee for a state id, got a temporary and was on my way. I headed over to the "income support" office to apply for state medical only to be informed that all they do is send off the paperwork and there is currently a waiting list, and I can call to check and see how long the waiting list is(quite discouraging). Luckily there are state run facilities and doctors visits are reasonable, if you have income of course. I always manage to have everything I need taken care of and I am truly not worried,which is oddly serene and nice for a change to believe down to the depths that I am okay and will continue to be okay. There is an abundance in this world, and I have been a recipient of said abundance, and I will continue to be. After the joyous morning of so few errands that took up so much time, I headed back to the house where I continued to ponder the computer in desperate need of repair, and began searching solutions for the now broken i-pod. I managed to save the i-pod and after many hours of searching find no cost solutions for backing up i-tunes, and found restore disks to save the computer(not mine by the way). With solutions in hand off we went to the local meeting, which turned out to be extremely disappointing. We came back, I ate some dinner, futzed around a bit then fell asleep watching tv, awaking hours later only to turn off the tv.
I awoke this morning at 9am ready to start the backup process on the i-tunes and restore the computer and that's where I headed. It was 28 disks to backup i-tunes and approximately 2 hours. Around noon I took a run on the tractor, to attempt to even out the field, which apparently failed, but granted me much need serenity, to combat yet another emotion filled day. I wonder if it will all take its toll and I will fall apart or if I am so connected with my God right now that I really am just okay? My skills are being utilized to their fullest, thats for sure. After my tractor run I fixed some lunch and continued on the computer. I finished up the i-tunes backup and began the restore process. Now I'm down to virus scan and making sure the drivers do not need reinstalling(which will wait until tomorrow). We made plans to head off to the city to get a local number for the soon to be open hunter/jumper business with hopefully plenty of time to make the youth meeting. Ahh how wonderful plans can be, especially when they don't work out! We headed out and I was finally able to get my prescription transferred out here so that was the first stop because it was on our way out of town. T-mobil was next on the list and we alloted one hour, but it ended up taking 2 and in the end was still $20 more than she wanted to spend, but got a good number for the business none-the-less. Being as we missed the meeting, we headed out just to fellowship instead, at a Greek restaurant that was less than delicious, but fellowship was nice. I notice that I am learning my way around and that I am feeling less disconnected, and am actually starting to make friends. I'm going to miss everyone when I leave in a couple months, I will have started to build incredible friendships. We headed in for the night, and drove straight into lighting and rain, which has made for an incredibly beautiful night, so much so that when I am done with this blog I may take my laptop and its calming meditation music and my fabulous im conversation out onto the patio for a few.
In other doesn't fit into the what I did in my day news I had the weirdest dream about someone back home, in the capacity that was lovey dovey. It made me miss them terribly, and really examine my feelings for them. But I won't be home for a while and sometimes I read my subconscious thoughts incorrectly...I will do some personal journaling about that. I am beginning to feel "lonely" in that capacity and yearning for something more.
And I've still been having this extremely intense deja vu at least three times a day. I'm not sure what to do about it.
I did get a call about another interview, which is next wednesday at 2. I do need to call back a temp agency on monday which had several jobs I was interested in and one was a 90 day position. And thats it!
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