Day 67 Aug 17 work 3pm-11pm
Day 68 Aug 18 Headed out at 8am with the roommate to Vegas, stopped at every Native gift shop along the way only to be a 1/2 hour late to the women's meeting(and had a blast), then headed to my aunts to get my hair cut while she and my mom and the dog headed to the house, he wanted to play with my mom's cat, who wasn't having it. It was entertaining to watch. Spent some time with my mom and dad and got to sleep late and woke up very early the next morning for the drive into Cali!
Day 69 Aug 19 Left around 5:30 in the morning, dropped off the dog, headed into Simi, stopped at the recycling center to drop off the bags of bottles my mom saves for me to recycle, then headed over to the Dmv to renew my drivers license. Was met by my friend who was driving me around for the weekend. After the Dmv we headed off to the committee meeting for the upcoming retreat and had a good time catching up and finishing the gifts for the retreat. Then got to hang with my other friend for the evening, catching up, talking, packing, drove out to Ventura to drop off school clothes for her grandson.
Day 70 Aug 20 Retreat Day! Last minute change of plans with my ride, but stayed in the solution and got to hang with my girls. The committee plus a few helpers all met early at Costco to get food for the retreat for the weekend. Split up the lists and everyone took a cart and went. I packed the cars and fit most of it in the chairs car, so we had very little in the second car. We still needed to stop at the grocery store to pick up a few things that Costco didn't have, stopped at El Pollo Loco for some lunch and headed up to La Casa De Maria to unload groceries and set up and wait for everyone to arrive! I won't share the retreat secrets but it was amazing.
Day 71 Aug 21 Second amazing retreat day!
Day 72 Aug 22 Fina retreat day. Another change in plans. Headed to Vegas just wasn't working out and instead of trying to fight it, I just decided to stay in Cali with my girls one more night. Although changing plans for the next day wasn't much easier then trying to get to Vegas, but it all worked out anyway. We left the retreat and a few of us headed out to Carrows in Ventura for lunch. My friend and I stopped for a walk on the beach on the way back to her house. Had a wonderful afternoon, and was exhausted by the evening. Only got a little sleep, cuz I had to be up early again for the drive back to New Mexico(so do the last 3 days technically not count as part of my New Mexico adventure?)
Day 73 Aug 23 Up early for the very long drive back to New Mexico. Somewhere along the course of the weekend I realized I wanted to be back home. I've known for a while that Cali is where I belong, and I did promise that I would stay for 3 months so in October I take my September paychecks and have a months rent and deposit and a whole lot of faith that I will be able to make second months rent. Anything to be back home. The drive was long and even though we switched drivers many times along the drive by the end of the night we were exhausted. As we turned off onto the very last freeway and the last stretch of road to switch drivers an old beat up pick up stopped in front of us, and a very handsome tall dark mysterious stranger asked if everything was alright. I smiled the best kindest smile I could muster after 13 hours of driving and assured him we were fine just switching drivers, he got in his car and went on his way. A short while up the road he turned into an old warehouse type building that looked nothing like a house and was gone. Perhaps it was just an angel reminding me that I am always protected. At some point along the drive I had called to ask what time I was working the next day to discover I had the day off, which rocked. So we decided we would head to old town, where I would meet Pancho and Rosie. Yes, they do exist and soon I will post pictures.
Day 74 Aug 24 We headed into old town in the afternoon and explored some cool shops. We stooped for dinner at a very luxurious restaurant that was super delicious. It was a fantastic afternoon/evening.
Day 75 Aug 25 work 3-11
Day 76 Aug 26 work 3-11
Day 77 Aug 27 work 3-11
Day 78 Aug 28 work 2-10
I haven't done much the last week besides maybe a few errands. Didn't wake up to go to Tai Chi on Tuesday or Thursday this week. The more and more isolated I become, the more and more isolated I want to be. I missed out on Na's birthday celebration, and was completely bummed. I will also miss out on the party on Sunday. I actually asked my boss if I could switch to full-time grave, and she was thrilled to have me offer! In one week I get my life back, then I can do things like Na stuff! And in one more month or thereabouts I'll be back in Cali! Ever since I made that decision I've been wrestling back and forth with it in my head. Do I stay an extra month and save more money? Do I go in October cuz I really want to be back? Did I even try to get involved in acting here? I'm sticking with my decision to go back, but hopefully I won't be so spiritually depleted once I switch to grave and can get back involved with recovery.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Day 63-66 August 13-16, 2010
Friday 13 Nothing out of the ordinary happened for me on this day. Surprisingly I got a Friday off, a rareity in my current job. So perhaps something out of the ordinary did happen and I missed it! This gave me the ability to go to the "crazy" meeting with the awesome fellowshipping afterwards. Us Californians are still unsure as to what these albuquerquians deem as being crazy cuz to us the meeting seems just fine. It is run in a fashion very similar to my Las Vegas meeting experience which may be the cause of the "crazy" term, because it is ever so subtlely different from the Abq norm. I am just grateful for the opportunity to be in any meeting. And after the fellowshipping we did a 12th step call, sort of as it related to the quitting cigarettes of a friend. We confiscated all "the goods" as it were and he has since made a commitment to stay quit. All in all it was a rather successful day off.
Sat 14 In an awesome chain of events that had me working graveyard, I was able to attend Bill's graduation party. I slept in, started my day late, did laundry, talked about the errands I needed to run all day, finally went out to run the errands to find the verizon store in town no longer existed. I still managed to get coolant for the car. We arrived at the party around 8 or so and many people were leaving. Around 9:30 when there was only a small handful of good friends left we broke out in dance! As was noted by Bill that's always the best part of the night. The spontaneous last dance of the evening. We all helped clean up, and we were on our way out well before I needed to leave for work. I was early and had time to change and dilly dally. I enjoyed my graveyard shift immensely, getting to watch 2 movies. Alice in Wonderland was excellent! Kick Ass was not what I was expecting but good in its own right.
Sun 15 I came in and had a few hours before the best meeting in the world. By the end of the meeting I was having troubles staying awake and was grateful that she knows how to drive stick, she drove home while I rested in a rather uncomfortable position for my neck, but it was much needed. There were people over when we got in and being tired, pmsy, and not in my best spiritual place humility was lacking and my mouth could not stay shut. I would like to learn how to practice these principles in my weakest states. I cried for an hour before crashing from sheer exhaustion and heightened emotion and slept all day. I awoke thinking that my alarm hadn't gone off yet and I must still need to sleep more only to discover that I had never turned it on after setting it, but managed to wake up when I needed to anyway. I'm not quite sure how that works but it did. I prepared for another day on grave! Movie, and laptop in hand. I was having a hard time shaking the feelings, but enjoyed my movie and quiet night with a renewed sense of purpose as to where I want to be and what I need to do to get there.
Mon 16 I was pulled over on the way back to the house and received a ticket for speeding, which I still am having a hard time believing I was going the speed the officer stated given all the factors involved, and a ticket for my expired registration which I was/am taking care of this trip back to Cali. I was issued a court day, hooray, and I'm hoping given all the circumstances the ticket will be dismissed. If not I will pay it and swallow my ego and practice my humility. Given the length of time spent pulled over I got in later than I wanted and didn't get to bed till quarter to 9. Having taken only 2 of the grave days, I still had to work my swing shift today and Tuesday-prior to my Wednesday vaca back to Cali via Vegas! I was surprisingly un-tired when I awoke 15 minutes b4 my alarm went off and slightly before she came in because I am normally up earlier for my swing shift, but I had decided not to shower because I had done nothing else the night before. It was sweet and as I managed to run late in spite of it, I still got to work on time. Work was a blast this particular shift given the 2 others were in a particular jokular mood. I was tired, and went to the grocery store on the way back to get a few things for the next couple of days and my trip. I ate a delicious microwave Thai dinner of curry basil rice noodles, watched some disney, fell asleep for a bit on the sofa in an obviously odd position waking achey and wanting to go to bed. Once I washed my face, however I was awake and have spent the morning online with no apparent focus today. Now I am tired and going to sleep not looking forward to the now 5 hours I will be getting. Hopefully when I come in from work tonight I will be very tired, so I will sleep and awake refreshed and ready to go on Wednesday! Vacation here I come, I am soooooooooo ready!
Sat 14 In an awesome chain of events that had me working graveyard, I was able to attend Bill's graduation party. I slept in, started my day late, did laundry, talked about the errands I needed to run all day, finally went out to run the errands to find the verizon store in town no longer existed. I still managed to get coolant for the car. We arrived at the party around 8 or so and many people were leaving. Around 9:30 when there was only a small handful of good friends left we broke out in dance! As was noted by Bill that's always the best part of the night. The spontaneous last dance of the evening. We all helped clean up, and we were on our way out well before I needed to leave for work. I was early and had time to change and dilly dally. I enjoyed my graveyard shift immensely, getting to watch 2 movies. Alice in Wonderland was excellent! Kick Ass was not what I was expecting but good in its own right.
Sun 15 I came in and had a few hours before the best meeting in the world. By the end of the meeting I was having troubles staying awake and was grateful that she knows how to drive stick, she drove home while I rested in a rather uncomfortable position for my neck, but it was much needed. There were people over when we got in and being tired, pmsy, and not in my best spiritual place humility was lacking and my mouth could not stay shut. I would like to learn how to practice these principles in my weakest states. I cried for an hour before crashing from sheer exhaustion and heightened emotion and slept all day. I awoke thinking that my alarm hadn't gone off yet and I must still need to sleep more only to discover that I had never turned it on after setting it, but managed to wake up when I needed to anyway. I'm not quite sure how that works but it did. I prepared for another day on grave! Movie, and laptop in hand. I was having a hard time shaking the feelings, but enjoyed my movie and quiet night with a renewed sense of purpose as to where I want to be and what I need to do to get there.
Mon 16 I was pulled over on the way back to the house and received a ticket for speeding, which I still am having a hard time believing I was going the speed the officer stated given all the factors involved, and a ticket for my expired registration which I was/am taking care of this trip back to Cali. I was issued a court day, hooray, and I'm hoping given all the circumstances the ticket will be dismissed. If not I will pay it and swallow my ego and practice my humility. Given the length of time spent pulled over I got in later than I wanted and didn't get to bed till quarter to 9. Having taken only 2 of the grave days, I still had to work my swing shift today and Tuesday-prior to my Wednesday vaca back to Cali via Vegas! I was surprisingly un-tired when I awoke 15 minutes b4 my alarm went off and slightly before she came in because I am normally up earlier for my swing shift, but I had decided not to shower because I had done nothing else the night before. It was sweet and as I managed to run late in spite of it, I still got to work on time. Work was a blast this particular shift given the 2 others were in a particular jokular mood. I was tired, and went to the grocery store on the way back to get a few things for the next couple of days and my trip. I ate a delicious microwave Thai dinner of curry basil rice noodles, watched some disney, fell asleep for a bit on the sofa in an obviously odd position waking achey and wanting to go to bed. Once I washed my face, however I was awake and have spent the morning online with no apparent focus today. Now I am tired and going to sleep not looking forward to the now 5 hours I will be getting. Hopefully when I come in from work tonight I will be very tired, so I will sleep and awake refreshed and ready to go on Wednesday! Vacation here I come, I am soooooooooo ready!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Days 49-62 July 30-Aug 12, 2010
With my new crazy, I am not used to working a regular work schedule, schedule I have neglected my summer adventure blog. My summer adventure which is turning into a summer/winter adventure.
A brief run down of the past few weeks to catch me up to a more regular regime of nightly or semi-nightly blogging.
Fri July 30 work.
Sat July 31 worked at 11am, scheduled till 7, but when brought back from original orientation let the boss know that I had a workshop for that evening that I had already paid for and she had already said she would let me have the day off. She didn't but agreed that I could leave early to attend the workshop. When the time arrived to leave, she stayed true to her word, and I was able to participate in a fantastic "wise women workshop" hosted by a new friend and wise wonderful woman. there were 6 of us women and it was a wonderful way to spend a gorgeous afternoon. 3 of us headed out to my new favorite cafe for tea, a bite to eat and conversation. We were joined by a male friend, significant other of our workshop hostess, who added to the wonderful conversation. It was a day definitely worth remembering.
Sun Aug 1 no work! i'm sure we hit up the best meeting in the world, but the rest of this day was obviously not a day worth remembering, since I have forgotten.
Mon Aug 2 begins the first day of reservations training for work. no uniform today, and only 4 hours!
Tues Aug 3 day two of training followed by a work shift. started at 1 for training, work shift got out at 11. at least it will be good overtime for the paycheck. did you know overtime is federally regulated so it does not matter what state you are in. ot pays after 8 hours in a day and 40 in a week.
Wed Aug 4 day 3, we were fully trained and this began testing day. i could have sworn i did horribly, and not got a high enough score to pass. after the test and group booking training, i headed down for my second day of too terribly long day at work. although i didn't start till 2 that day and got out at 11. the 9 hours wasn't so bad.
Thurs Aug 5 hooray for Tai Chi! which due to the long day of training on tuesday I slept in and missed, I forced myself out of bed for this days class! I was so grateful I did, too! I really love Tai Chi. When I got back to the house I packed up my things for a weekend of house sitting for a women friend who lives in the city. I got to the house and just chillaxed for the day. Intending on going to a meeting but sitting around in pjs just wanting to relax got the better of me, and I enjoyed myself, plus a storm had set in and it was too miserable to go outside. on the plus side there was enough rain that i didn't have to water the garden the next day. but the poor puppy was scared by all the thunder and lighting and did not much like being cooped up without the option of running around outside. i spoiled her with tons of attention.
Fri Aug 6 another work day. 3-11pm. didn't leave room to go to the meeting that has the best fellowshipping afterwards. i mourn the losses, but i'm the "new guy" at work, so I have to grin and bear it and take what they give me. and I AM grateful to have this well paying job. I just would like to have the well paying job and the best of the ABQ fellowship! I want my cake and eat it to. Sooon.
Sat Aug 7 A free makeover at Sephora at the mall, hosted by my favorite makeup bare minerals. now i have properly learned how to apply the makeup, and discovered i need to be using different stuff, but still have yet to check with sephora if they will accept returns on used products. or see if bare minerals would if ordered from a store and not direct through them. then to work again!
Sun Aug 8 nothing exciting here except work.
Mon Aug 9 yeah, a day off! i slept in as long as i could stand to and awoke to walk the dog to the river where she gets to swim, to come back to the house and water all the plants, and in the process get a tad burnt, catch up on phone calls and just enjoy being outside for the day, and pack up to leave the house by 5:30 to make it to the train station on time to pick her up for the meeting and out of the house for the next house sitter to come(3 of us split the 10 days). this was a business meeting day and this particular meeting included a guideline review, which we know I love! I probably made the process longer by wanting constant clarification on all that was being reviewed and trying to learn and accept the way this fellowship works. afterwards we grabbed dinner at our favorite cafe, and skipped karaoke for the evening because it was 11 when we got out of dinner.
Tues Aug 10 another work day. i skipped tai chi because i was beginning to feel very run down and knew my body needed rest. i knew i wouldn't be going thurs either due to a training class at work, but gave up for the week. i may not make it at all next week either due to the retreat, but hopefully when i get back my schedule will find some balance and i can be more consistent with my tai chi. at work, next to our department is a temporary tattoo parlor, that they are hoping to have a permanent location elsewhere in the hotel. one of my coworkers had asked about the price of a piercing and they quoted her $20. i decided i really wanted to get my lip pierced 1) because i've wanted to for a while and 2)mainly because i can with this hotel!, so I did! I'm thinking about getting a tattoo there for my birthday gift to myself, or maybe just my next paycheck(after I pay my bills-since this paycheck is mostly going to the retreat).
Wed Aug 11 i left my phone in my car the night before thus missing my appointment with my counselor and not being able to call and let him know i wasn't going to make it because i slept right past my appointment time. i see now in some of the decisions i have made this week were not in my best interest and a tad on the unhealthy side. luckily i have broken that habit tonight and don't have to continue the behavior I am now glaringly aware of, with HP's help of course! and another 3-11 day at work. i actually passed the reservations test i thought i did not and this was my first almost full day on reservations. i was much more comfortable not in the classroom setting. i made all the mistakes on one reservation, got them out of my system and didn't do to terribly after that. i ended up making 15 reservations in the 6 hours of the day that i was working reservations and now i have more confidence in my ability. plus i'm asking a bunch of questions about things before saturday when i will be working by myself on a graveyard shift, that i am honestly excited about. i may even see if i can switch with the person who is being hired for our full time grave position, if he'd rather work swing. we'll see how it goes this weekend!
Thurs Aug 12 today i had to be up early for responsible gaming training at 11am. of course i had a 2-10 work schedule with an hour break between class and work. i went into the city with my recyclables which are finally not taking up space in my car and over to verizon to see about getting a different phone only to find an immensely long wait and headed back to work. i am now officially up 2 hours later than i wanted to be, and while i have the day off tomorrow i am getting up to work the second tradition in the morning, so i do have to get up. at least i don't have to shower or be anywhere till later in the afternoon! since i made some healthier choices than vegging in front of the tv tonight, i decided to update my blog as well.
A brief run down of the past few weeks to catch me up to a more regular regime of nightly or semi-nightly blogging.
Fri July 30 work.
Sat July 31 worked at 11am, scheduled till 7, but when brought back from original orientation let the boss know that I had a workshop for that evening that I had already paid for and she had already said she would let me have the day off. She didn't but agreed that I could leave early to attend the workshop. When the time arrived to leave, she stayed true to her word, and I was able to participate in a fantastic "wise women workshop" hosted by a new friend and wise wonderful woman. there were 6 of us women and it was a wonderful way to spend a gorgeous afternoon. 3 of us headed out to my new favorite cafe for tea, a bite to eat and conversation. We were joined by a male friend, significant other of our workshop hostess, who added to the wonderful conversation. It was a day definitely worth remembering.
Sun Aug 1 no work! i'm sure we hit up the best meeting in the world, but the rest of this day was obviously not a day worth remembering, since I have forgotten.
Mon Aug 2 begins the first day of reservations training for work. no uniform today, and only 4 hours!
Tues Aug 3 day two of training followed by a work shift. started at 1 for training, work shift got out at 11. at least it will be good overtime for the paycheck. did you know overtime is federally regulated so it does not matter what state you are in. ot pays after 8 hours in a day and 40 in a week.
Wed Aug 4 day 3, we were fully trained and this began testing day. i could have sworn i did horribly, and not got a high enough score to pass. after the test and group booking training, i headed down for my second day of too terribly long day at work. although i didn't start till 2 that day and got out at 11. the 9 hours wasn't so bad.
Thurs Aug 5 hooray for Tai Chi! which due to the long day of training on tuesday I slept in and missed, I forced myself out of bed for this days class! I was so grateful I did, too! I really love Tai Chi. When I got back to the house I packed up my things for a weekend of house sitting for a women friend who lives in the city. I got to the house and just chillaxed for the day. Intending on going to a meeting but sitting around in pjs just wanting to relax got the better of me, and I enjoyed myself, plus a storm had set in and it was too miserable to go outside. on the plus side there was enough rain that i didn't have to water the garden the next day. but the poor puppy was scared by all the thunder and lighting and did not much like being cooped up without the option of running around outside. i spoiled her with tons of attention.
Fri Aug 6 another work day. 3-11pm. didn't leave room to go to the meeting that has the best fellowshipping afterwards. i mourn the losses, but i'm the "new guy" at work, so I have to grin and bear it and take what they give me. and I AM grateful to have this well paying job. I just would like to have the well paying job and the best of the ABQ fellowship! I want my cake and eat it to. Sooon.
Sat Aug 7 A free makeover at Sephora at the mall, hosted by my favorite makeup bare minerals. now i have properly learned how to apply the makeup, and discovered i need to be using different stuff, but still have yet to check with sephora if they will accept returns on used products. or see if bare minerals would if ordered from a store and not direct through them. then to work again!
Sun Aug 8 nothing exciting here except work.
Mon Aug 9 yeah, a day off! i slept in as long as i could stand to and awoke to walk the dog to the river where she gets to swim, to come back to the house and water all the plants, and in the process get a tad burnt, catch up on phone calls and just enjoy being outside for the day, and pack up to leave the house by 5:30 to make it to the train station on time to pick her up for the meeting and out of the house for the next house sitter to come(3 of us split the 10 days). this was a business meeting day and this particular meeting included a guideline review, which we know I love! I probably made the process longer by wanting constant clarification on all that was being reviewed and trying to learn and accept the way this fellowship works. afterwards we grabbed dinner at our favorite cafe, and skipped karaoke for the evening because it was 11 when we got out of dinner.
Tues Aug 10 another work day. i skipped tai chi because i was beginning to feel very run down and knew my body needed rest. i knew i wouldn't be going thurs either due to a training class at work, but gave up for the week. i may not make it at all next week either due to the retreat, but hopefully when i get back my schedule will find some balance and i can be more consistent with my tai chi. at work, next to our department is a temporary tattoo parlor, that they are hoping to have a permanent location elsewhere in the hotel. one of my coworkers had asked about the price of a piercing and they quoted her $20. i decided i really wanted to get my lip pierced 1) because i've wanted to for a while and 2)mainly because i can with this hotel!, so I did! I'm thinking about getting a tattoo there for my birthday gift to myself, or maybe just my next paycheck(after I pay my bills-since this paycheck is mostly going to the retreat).
Wed Aug 11 i left my phone in my car the night before thus missing my appointment with my counselor and not being able to call and let him know i wasn't going to make it because i slept right past my appointment time. i see now in some of the decisions i have made this week were not in my best interest and a tad on the unhealthy side. luckily i have broken that habit tonight and don't have to continue the behavior I am now glaringly aware of, with HP's help of course! and another 3-11 day at work. i actually passed the reservations test i thought i did not and this was my first almost full day on reservations. i was much more comfortable not in the classroom setting. i made all the mistakes on one reservation, got them out of my system and didn't do to terribly after that. i ended up making 15 reservations in the 6 hours of the day that i was working reservations and now i have more confidence in my ability. plus i'm asking a bunch of questions about things before saturday when i will be working by myself on a graveyard shift, that i am honestly excited about. i may even see if i can switch with the person who is being hired for our full time grave position, if he'd rather work swing. we'll see how it goes this weekend!
Thurs Aug 12 today i had to be up early for responsible gaming training at 11am. of course i had a 2-10 work schedule with an hour break between class and work. i went into the city with my recyclables which are finally not taking up space in my car and over to verizon to see about getting a different phone only to find an immensely long wait and headed back to work. i am now officially up 2 hours later than i wanted to be, and while i have the day off tomorrow i am getting up to work the second tradition in the morning, so i do have to get up. at least i don't have to shower or be anywhere till later in the afternoon! since i made some healthier choices than vegging in front of the tv tonight, i decided to update my blog as well.
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